What Does Family Mean to Me?
Hi guys, today I want to post something that’s not design-related.
Maybe it’s kinda emotional for me, so rather than keeping it to myself, it’s better to express it in writing.
The topic is about family.
Speaking of family, I always wonder, "What does family mean to me?"
Because I often watch movies or content on social media, I frequently feel envious of families that seem harmonious, without any jealousy among them.
Through tough and easy times, they are always there.
The situation is quite the opposite for me. All I get are insults and contempt.
Sometimes they help my mom and me, but it doesn’t seem heartfelt. They help in front, but complain behind my back.
Because of this, I became more curious and many questions arose.
“Are they my real family?”
“If I only have my mom, does that count as a small family?”
For your information, I am the only child of my parents (not that this information is important, lol).
Due to the seemingly indifferent family environment, I became an introvert and even reserved.
I am comfortable when talking one-on-one, but I preferred my father at that time.
For some reason, he could always break the ice and change my rigid behavior.
And then something happened that I didn't want to happen.
My father died when I was 12 years old due to a heart attack.
I felt lost and did not know what to do next.
I couldn't believe someone I loved (though I didn't love his behavior outside, by the way) was gone.
Because of that incident, my ranking dropped to 21 by the end of the final semester in sixth grade.
Initially, I always ranked in at least the top 10. Luckily, my mom understood the situation.
And because of that incident as well, our economy plummeted drastically.
Debts everywhere, my mom had to pay them off. Borrowing here and there, even until now there are still debts that have not been settled.
Due to her increasing age, my mom decided to stop working.
From junior high school to senior high school, our livelihood depended on my mom trying to sell various household items that were no longer needed.
My mom also asked for help from one of my aunts to support our living expenses.
However, gradually that assistance became less frequent (though still once a month).
Since then, I have been trying to find ways to earn money.
I tried many things, starting from joining a talent management where the pay was only 10 thousand rupiahs at that time.
Then, I tried to learn logo design from YouTube and dared myself to start an online service.
Until now, I have become a UI Designer, all thanks to my determination to help my mom.
Although I cannot replace the sacrifices my mom made in the past, at least I want to do what I can for her.
Now, my only companion at home to talk to is my mom.
I try to talk with my mom often because such opportunities were rare in the past.
No matter what people might say, whether it's a broken family or a small family, the two of us will never care again.
Before I conclude this writing, I just want to ask all of you to pray so that my mom’s debts can be paid off, I can buy a house and a car for her, and finally, I can go on a hajj with her.
So, what does family mean to you guys? Feel free to discuss it in the comment section below 👇
Until next time,
Elfan
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